Lockdown 1.0

 It's been a ride. 

I wasn't sure I was ready to face being back this March. 

Finding a job and facing the world. Then I got thrown into a brand new world. 

A world of solitude, that is similar to my past life - agoraphobic with an addiction to technology. This time my classic world is accepted, allowed and celebrated. 

The pressure for finding a job, social success is lifted, but in its place is over-comfort, solitude and procrastination. Worst of all is temptation. 

I've turned this lockdown into a bootcamp, a paradise. I aim to be more proactive, brave and inspiring. Instead there is greatness, a plan, ambitions, tasks to seek growth. It is the rise of the warrior, the yogi, the baker, the roller, the hula-hooper, the bodybuilder, the runner, the memory champ, the listener, the speaker, the pick up artist, the self assured human being. 

What I'm doing is incredible. Be this self and I will always achieve greatness. 

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